Falling and Breaking Your Knees.

Last year's snow covered angel has flew away.
I let her go. I figured i cant hold on to her forever.
It was more like... i asked her to let me, let her go.
The higher she flew, the more pain i felt on my hands.
But you see, i was afraid of falling.
And hitting my face on the ground.
But thats the case isnt it. Everytime u let go of an angel,
the next one comes and lift you up. But the greatest fear,
is not really falling and breaking ur knees.
Its about letting go and killing all the other possibilities left.
But Im going to anyway. For once, let it all go.
Maybe i just got picked up by a wrong angel. Maybe its just a mistake.
But i tell you. Its the most beautiful mistake ive ever seen.
This one is different. Because eventhough ive let go,
she comes visit once in a while. But i try so hard,
to not hold on to her again. I cant. I wont. It stops here.

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www.thesnowsymphony.blogspot.com

Moments

Im sitting here watching this movie called "The Air I Breathe", about a few characters with their own life stories. About love, pleasure, happiness... (so far is this three because the movie is still going on as i write this blog post!) Its a good movie.

Anyway, it got me thinking about my life, this year. (not trying to sound emo or anything) It just got me thinking thats all. From the first day of January 2008 till now, one more month till the year ends. So what have i done. See i wasnt much of a "new year resolutions" kind a guy. I know a few things i wanna do eventually but never really gave myself fixed deadlines. Though this year has been amazing. Where to start.

It all started with the horrible Christmas i had last year when i fell for a person, someone that i actually grew to care for. Travelled a 12 hour train ride to see her. Been in the same car crash. Carry her barefeet to the hospital while she bleeded all over my hands. Took care of her when she was drugged up with pain and medicine. All while we're in a different state, an island of cheap booze and duty free cigarettes. But things didnt turn up too well. But the year is almost ending, whatever it is, with all the misunderstanding. Ive gotten over it. And i think its time to stop holding anything against you. Its been a year. A song has been written. Its done.

HUSH

As soon as 2008 hits the calendar. I started to come out as a singersongwriter. I performed cover songs at the attic and put in a few of my originals that Ive written. It was really funny because this is when i really see how one thing leads to another. See, a really good friend of mine, a director at KLPac, Helena Foo asked me if i would like to play a song with her at the Attic Bangsar, a song from this physical thatre show we were working on. So nervously, i said yes. From there, the event manager that i do not know at all, Mr. Llew Marsh asked me if i would like to perform at the attic. And yet again, i nervously said yes. Llew became my really good friend whom i meet once in a while nowadays. But thats not the end of this part of the story. Llew gave me a night at the attic where i perform 1 hour and a half of all the songs i wanna do plus my own songs while he backed me up on piano. But i wanted to do something different. I was looking for a cellist. Unfortunately he didnt have anyone avaible but he got me a violinist instead.

Thats when i met Savy for the first time. This chinese girl who plays the violin. Who would have thought. She became the other half of The Snow Symphony and also became a friend, a musician who helped me with my songs to make it sound even better. And sometimes a music a teacher to me. My music theory sucks. With the addition of a Rohnie to help us play the cello, the sound just got a whole lot better. Now we're on our pre-production stage for our first album... titled:

The Snow Symphony.... Moments.

So now you see how one thing leads to another. The next thing you know i was performing gigs in different places. Meeting new people in the scene. And writing more songs which some will be featured in the album. From smaller gigs to a little bigger ones. From open mic to unpaid feature and then to feature paid gigs. It was amazing. At the same time this was happening, our sound, and my songwriting slowly evolves. It sort of became more mature as the year ends. Wherever the direction of my music is going, its a trip worth going for.

Then guess what happened. I auditioned for a play by The Instant Cafe Theatre, Aircon and got the part. I didnt really had much expectations so i was kinda surprised i got it. I played William, a soft chinese kedahan boy who gets bullied and has to face the harsh reality of being gay. We sold out almost every night. Theatre wise, i sort of got my break through from there. I think. I hope so. (laugh) All thanks to the cast and crew of Aircon. Jo Kukathas, Zalfian, Ryan B, Bob, Amerul, Mona and Mimi, Nam Ron, Cikgu Hensem and Ah Kok. See you all next year for the restaging. Should be exciting.

So now you'll ask me what ive done this year. There's actually more to this year than what ive wrote. But there's just too many to write down everything. But i guess when it comes to my music and my coming out into pulic with it, i think its been a crazy year. Things are happening fast. Im still excited to see where this trip takes me. Now my mind is just all about the album. We've started rehearsal and arranging all the parts for the songs before we got o the studio. Hopefully, hopefully, we can get it out by February.

Moments. I wanted to call it moments because i have a friend who made me realise what i always write about. People always ask me that question. What do you write about. If i was mean i would say, "Read my blog, my lyrics are there!" but then again im not. (muahaha) Honestly i wouldnt know how to answer. But this friend of mine, she told me, "You know what Nick. You write about moments." RIght after she said that, i realise how true that was.

What do i write about?

I write about the 3 second hug you got from the person you're really into.

I write about the last thing a person said to you before they stop being your friend.

I write about the last thing you think about when you're pissed drunk before you pass out.

I write about the feeling you're feeling when you're sitting on the beach and you realize the reason to go on living when times are hard.

I write about the feeling you get when a friend distant himself or herself from you.

I write about wanting someone so bad but you'll stop wanting them because they'll be happier otherwise and its what they want.

I write about... Moments.

On The Outside

I dont feel it - laughing outside.
I wanna feel it - smilling outside.
I wanna forget it - dancing outside.
I dont want it - cheerful outside.
I need it - bright outside.
I want it - healthy outside.
I hate it - I love it... outside.

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Into The Sky (when you're ready)

I feel... there's a moment
like a moment with you
I feel... we can make this
into a picture of two

Slowly, darling slowly
We'll take it easy right now
Rewind, start all over
Itll be beautiful, somehow

Hold the line for me
Ill be right behind you
Hold the time for me
Let me do what i do

Ill fly you to the sky
Ill fly you to the sky

- Nick Davis

Star

She waited for, valentine's day
To pack my things, and to say
Im sorry honey, but you gota go
Your bar tab's running, and you got no dough
I met this guy today, yes he's here
You're a broke musician, he's a rocketeer
So take your things, get out of my place
get your life back together, get out of my face.

So I became a rock star
All the people round the world they listens me
I know who i am, do you know who you are
You are... You are... You are...
just the girl that didnt wait for me.

Remember the time, our parents kicked us out
For doing drugs, so we ran down south.
Remember what you told me, this is what you said to me
Baby dont you leave me cuz ill always wanna b with you
Now that your parent's dead, you got all the money they had.
You dont need me here no more cuz u think that my attitude is bad.

You're too good for me. You're too good for me.
You think you're too good for me, but you're not.

-Nick Davis

Burning

I see, you're waiting

Someday, Its coming

Not me, cause Im leaving

Too late, you're burning

Me... Alive...

it hurts... but Ill survive...

Cant find nothing that works in this universe

I let myself fall, bury me down

Holding on to my dreams, but now ill tear it up

Throw it away, like how i found it before

you left me out.

Maybe, this is what you want

Erase me, and this love is done

Kill me, as of now I have none

We'll be, only be

This song... That is sung...

Right now... Its all for you...

Cant find nothing that works in this universe
I let myself fall, bury me down
Holding on to my dreams, but now ill tear it up
Throw it away, like how i found it before
you left me out.

I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.

I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.

I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.

I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.

I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.
I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.
I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.
I shouldnt have. I shouldnt have.

- Nick Davis